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Wednesday, December 30, 2009

What are you doing for New Years?



me? I'll be in church...

asking GOD to help me salvage whats left of myself from this year...

"don't leave all your pieces behind...you need to keep a couple to remember what broke them in the first place...


put yourself back together. Don't worry about the spots that are missing because of the pieces you'll leave behind. They will get filled in later with new pieces... better or worse is totally up to you."


(but really, what do you all have planned for New Years? I want to know...)

Monday, December 28, 2009

Merry Christmas | Happy New Year | Sorry



So I just got in from a hardy trip to Buffalo and I told myself before I feel asleep I will come and apologize to my blog for abandoning it for the last couple of weeks and my followers.


I hope all of you had an amazing and safe Christmas. And I hope you guys have a great New Years.

Man I have A LOT of things on my mind right now but I'm too tired to sort it out and write it down but you will see it...that's one of my resolutions...to become a frequent blogger and update this at least twice a week... but anyway good night all. the time now is 3:30

(yeah the picture above, really has nothing to do with Christmas nor New Years I never had an image to represent the holidays. so that's just my foot walking in snow from 2 years ago, sorry.)

Tuesday, December 15, 2009

Count Your Blessings from LOSTINTHEWILLDERNESS.com




So this is a post I was reading off of lostinthewillderness.com. I truly believe this is something real powerful and an eye opener. A lot of people out there, young and old can't stand their parents, but understand sometimes they do what they do because they love you and worry...I know its long but its worth the read... I love you mom =)


and thank you Will for the words don't forget to check out his blog lostinthewillderness.com

You know when you’re a kid and you’re parents lecture you about all sorts of shit that you found no use for? They’d say whatever and then they’d finish it with, ‘You’re too young. You’ll understand when you get older’?
Yesterday morning, one of those things kicked in.
One of my homeboys knocked out at my crib last night.

As usual, my mom wakes me up by yelling at me from upstairs down to the basement, telling me Im late, get up, I sleep too much, I shouldnt just lay in bed, Im lazy blah blah blah. Im tellin her I hear her, then I cant hear her, and 10 more minutes blah blah blah. I was annoyed and tired and just wanted her to stop talking so I could go back to sleep…and you could have definitely heard it in my tone when I responded to her.

My boy goes…“Man…this brings me back to when my mom used to yell at me to wake up every morning.”
My boy’s mother actually passed away when he was 15. Im not going to get into detail about his life or his mother, but man, I would have no idea who, where and what I would be if I had ever lost my mom now…nevermind if I lost her when I was 15.
My mom always says ‘You can be upset at me yelling at you all you want now, but when I die, you wont be able to hear me yell at you even if you wished for it.”
In my head, Id always be like…why the crack would I ever wish for you to yell at me?
And then it kicked in when my boy said what he said…I realized, its not that we (as children) will miss the yelling in particular, its that you will miss someone caring about you. You’ll miss someone trying to teach you to become a better person. You’ll miss someone preparing you for the world. You miss the love that only a mother could give.

Only a mother could yell at you about being late for life, yell some more about how you taking your sweet ass time waking up will effect you in your life later on but then still cook you breakfast and have it ready for you by the time you finish brushing your teeth, still kiss you on your forehead and tell you to zip up your jacket before you leave the house.

I feel like the older I get, the more I begin to understand my mom and all things she’s taught me. Parents just like to drench you with knowledge and wisdom, even if it doesnt make sense for you to know when they tell you. They say it enough times for you to never really forget it, and when the right time comes, you suddenly always remember and you say ‘aaahhh, I get it now…’ Of course you will never have your epiphany outloud because you know how parents get when they’re right and you’re wrong. lol
The more that I see how difficult life becomes, the more respect I gain for my mother…I begin to love her a bit more too as I begin to replay all the old lectures in mind. lol.
I dont know what exactly I was trying to express with this post, so forgive me I lost you. Im a lot better at opening topics than wrapping them up. lol.
My sincerest thanks and appreciation to all the mothers out there who love and raise their kids to become great people.
Anyways, Im not trying to preach, but never forget to count your blessings because you dont know what you got til its gone.
And do me a favor, make sure you kiss your mom before you sleep tonight, call her on the phone, or whatever…just let her know you love her, because any given moment, could be the last moment given.

Monday, December 7, 2009